Reminiscing-LOVE

Spell loyalty,

2009-12-20T21:25:00.003+08:00

bloggig now,9:27pm.
I just return from windsurfing & dinner.
Today wind was really good except that it was choppy & gusty.
Had fun. with brother & daddy.
With Phantom 320 & BIC 7.8m. WIth a super big hole at the lowest panel la. Omfg.
Anyway, dinner at chong pang. i really have no appetite this few days. IDK why.
Good time to slim down haha.
i just got home. baby is having staff parade now.
& i'm waiting for a movie to be ready to watch. Fireproof.
SUPER NICE & touching must watch.
had my birthday celebration yesterday.
I learnt a very important lesson. & i know how much i meant in you guys when you call me sister/friend. .l. 2 words, FUCK OFF.
Humans can be so selfish and irrespondsible.
Thank you for thyose who came, the food was really nice aye.
& the cake. LOL. Enjoyed.
Presents!! red packets!! thanks william & joyce. (:
i'm ending here life is too bored to write about.
Cheerios.

J is so lazyyyyy.

2009-12-05T10:31:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps,
I'm too lazy to blog about the rest of my days in nepal.
But i'll do it, one day.
Hmm.. Baby is so lucky. he's out of trouble now.
He reflected and said he will never do it again and will be good til he ORD.
Army things can't be avoided, it's goverment politics.
We don't do anything we want.
Anyway, partial of nepal photos is up is facebook already.
And i'm working now.
With my very painful eyes, idk what's wrong with it though.
I've already bought a spectacles, waiting for it to be done, that will be sunday.
Okay, i'm going back to windsurf.
I'm really not thinking about what will be the outcome of everything.
Like team mates and stuff.
I will get over it, i hope so.
Woohoo.
It's finally december.
It's the 6th today, Precious 21st.
It's gonna be the 12th soon, 33rd monthsary.
It's gonna be the 14th soon, baby's 19th.
It's gonna be the 23rd soon, my 18th.
It's gonna be the 25th soon, IT CHRISTMAS FINALLY!

HAPPENING UH.
Everybody! It's time to PARTYYYYYYY.

Love, J

26/11/09. Pokhara, nepal.

2009-12-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

Alooooooha people,
Sorry for updating late. there wasn't internet to use the past few days.
My 3rd day in nepal.
Woke up early in the morning to catch the sunrise.
It was really really beautiful from where we stood. With the sunlight shining on the mountains. the sun rays looked awesomely beautiful.
It took only like 5 mins for the whole sun to rise.
But to catch the sun shining on the mountains is in between dawn and sun rise.
Went back to the hotel after, had lunch.
After lunch we wnet to the tibetans refugees, cool aye.
They actually manufacture their own carpet using 100% cotton.
All hand made and the tibetans are really really friendly.
Bought a pencil case for 80 rupees.
Then we went over to devi's fall.
It was named that after a ocuple from swiss went to the waterfall to bath.
& devi fell off from teh waterfall and drowned, that's why.
Very sad story but it was really thoughtful of them to make this a memorial ground.
The waterfall was really a beaute but if it was in autumn season it would be nicer.
Cause most of the water has dried off. so just a small waterfall.
Then we head over to the sibah and ganesh cave.
It's temple built in cave. Sibah is the father and ganesh is the son.
That's all i know. haha.
We had teh whole afternoon free and guess what, daddy &i went paragliding.
Awesome, superb fun. the feeling is undescribable.
Although we didn't have anough clothes on. I really enjoyed it alot.
We even got a certificate. (:
Headed back to the hotel, rest & had dinner, went out for a walk.
Back to the hotel to use the net.
Turning in now.
Heading to chitwan national park tomorrow.
Goooooooooood night.
Lovee you b

In nepal, pokhara ( 25/11/09 )

2009-11-27T00:18:00.003+08:00

25/11/09.
Helloooooo earthlings,
I'm here to blog about my second day in nepal, pokhara.
It was freezing cold in the morning.
Like 10 degrees celcius,smoke coming out from everyone's mouth.
We left kathmandu at about 7am to where i am now, pokhara.
The bus journey took 6 hours, with short breaks in between.
I slept throughout the whole journey on & off, mostly sleeping. LOL.
Sometimes awake to look at the surroundings and scenery. AWESOME.
Very interesting place as nothing looks the same compared to singapore.
Their daily life and how they survive, you can never imagine.
We are so so much better.
They lived in high slopes mountain and it's so narrow,
they might just miss a step and drop into the forest and no one will even realize.
Reached pokhara at about 1pm. had buffet lunch, checked in to the new hotel, hotel BAHARI.
Very country style, very beautiful.
At 3:45PM everyone met & we went to a very famous lake.
Went boating for an hour. VEry awesome view of the himalayan mountains,
covered with snow.Eg, fish tail.
Look at the pictures when i'm back and you'll know.
Looks very very artificial. like drawn in.
Had some shopping time, almost every shop sells the same stuff.
Get to rest after and dinner later. Buffet again. Aww..
& no meat buffet, oh my god. i almost fainted.
Lucky for me they had bbq chicken plate.USD 5/plate.
Includes steak, pork, chicken and jack potatoe.
Walked around after dinner.
Parewnts went for foot massage, count me & sister out.
Till now i'm finally back in the hotel, resting soooooooooon.
Got to wake up at 5am tomorrow morning to catch the sunrise!!!!!
Can't wait. Woohoo.
Ending here for yesterday.
Gotta go now.
Good night lovee you b

In nepal ( 24/11/09 )

2009-11-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

8:50pm.
Hello peeps,
I'm currently in nepal now.
Weather is 12 degrees celcius. wow.
Superb cold. luckily prepared thicker winter clothes.
This entry is more for my baby to read. cause journal is with him.
He is suppose to share his daily routine without me.
Slept at 4am, woked up at 5 to prepare.
Left home and reach airport around 7am, checked in.
Waited for the slow slow old man.
Had breakfast around 8:30am, checked in at 8:45am.
Waited for the airplane to get ready and woohoo. haha.
I'm seating at 24F, window seat in silkair. COOL.
Although it wasn't my first time.
4 hours and 40 minutes of flight to reach.
Reached nepal around 12pm.
Went for lunch and sight seeing after.
Get to know this very fascinating thing.
This person called goddess.
Will be chosen from many new borns.
& they've to go through many test to get the status, to be god.
then the lucky one will have to stay in a palace, very old &small.
But interesting building.
They'll have to stay in and learned all the things taught.
Only before 12pm in the morning and after 4pm in the noon.
She'll walked to the open concept at the 3rd floor of the building.
&people will all be waiting to see her.
That's what i did today.
& she's only 4 years old!!
Very eye opening.
Many different things to see compared to singapore.
Went back to the hotel, went for dinner,
& here i am at the lobby submitting my entry.
Pictures most prolly will only be uploaded when i'm back in singapore.
Cause i'm lazy haha.
Signing off now.
Good night, lovee you b.

stuffed up!

2009-11-12T17:10:00.002+08:00

5:12pm
Hello peeps,
It's near to ending work time now.
I'm too bored. nothing much to do.
Daddy is still not talking to me. ):
I guess i made him too disappointed.
& i miss windsur5fing like, totally.
But baby doesn't like it when i go windsurfing.
Partly because i always come back with cuts &bruises.
Another is i can only windsurf on weekends.
& weekends is for the both of us.
I don't blame him though. It's perfectly normal.
I always try to go windsurf when he's on duty or when he couldn't come out.
So i wouldn't have to

we belong together

2009-11-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

10:30pm.
My to be continued entry before turning in.
I had a very good evening with b.
Time was short and restricted. Cause he's out for nights off only.
Fascinating about how well things went,
After i decided to tell him to forget about everything that happened.
He agreed &we are very happy.
Now he's in camp attending last parade.
I am here to share how happey i am.
Met b at bukit gombak, humans are everywhere.
Trained back to woodlands.
Wanted to have MOS burger for dinner but teriyaki chicken was OOS.
How unusual.
So we decided to had something else.
When we walked out of MOS we saw the apple strudel shop is back.!
So we got a mini apple strudel. Chucks*
Then headed back to his home.
Packed dinner &fried ice cream!!
Had dinner & watched some chinese movie.
Bathed and i was really sleepy, starting from when we were watching movie.
So we just rest & waited for time to pass.
Bus home and waited for baby's dad to come fetch him.
& here i am back home blogging.
What a pleasent day..
Gotta go now. Baby's waiting.
Nights earthlings.

Us.

2009-11-11T14:20:00.002+08:00

It's 4:08pm now.
I'm working halfway & somehow i just feel like blogging.
Nowhere to let everything go.
I guessed i need a roller coaster ride now.
Almost 6 months since i last had an entry.
Internet usage wasn't that convenient though.
But i got my laptop now.
& i believe baby ain't happy at all.
Things have changed alot.
Much more then expected. You & me.
I totally have no idea, why is it so.
So things just ain't as simple as it sounds.
You must be in it to understand, to fear and to feel.
But we're both different people coming together from both different worlds.
To be continued...

updates

2009-05-17T23:56:00.001+08:00

teehee.
i haven't blog for months.
life's never the same for me.
Ups and downs.
always the same old shit.
Nothing much changed in my boring life.
Got e63 instead of e71.
Got a new psp.
what else.?
I NEED TO GO SHOPPING like seriously.
still windsurfing.
400 bucks really teach me how to survive but that's not the life i want.
D &i just past our 26th month ans mummy invited him over to our house on her birthday.
what a pleasent surprise.
Anyway, im sleeping now.

Pity.

2009-04-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

My thumb is so patethic.
It's joint is broken.
So effing painful.
Duh.
10 days MC, no windsurfing for me. :(

Rot, rotting.

2009-04-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

I guess little people blogs now.
Everyone have moved on to facebook.
But anyway, photos are in the computer but yet to upload.
Not busy just lazy.
Went New york skin solution today.
Nice~
Also met up with peixin, ages since i last saw her.
Jessprecious was together.
I'm sitting in my living room now.
Rotting like how my blog rot.
Feeling very sick and pissed off.
Life's like that.
Bye

Sickening shit.

2009-04-20T13:48:00.002+08:00

1:51pm.
I'm totally shit.
That's what i feel.
Idk why. life has been near to perfection.
Family, windsurfing and you.
But it seems like it couldn't last.
Since my return from pattaya.
Things are like shit.
The awesome feeling is destroyed partially.
& i hate it, i really do. IT SUCKS!
I seriously can't wait for probation to end.
Less than 3 months, i'm free.
I want everything to be back, to how it should be.
Like how i fought hard to have you as my boyf.
Photos of pattaya will be uploaded tonight.
I'm very free now but i couldn't find the cable.
Wait till daddy comes home.
Bye.

Lazy.

2009-04-13T00:33:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging since my return from pattaya.
Schedules are effing tight and i really can't find time,
to sit infront of the computer like how i used to.
Anyway, pictures are not up yet.
Soon, hopefully. when 'm free.
Went church on good friday.
went church on sunday.
Training on saturday & sunday.
Just cleared my wardrobe, so new clothes can come in. LOL.
I've been eating alot lately, i need to go on diet.
Tomorrow is off day!!
i love D.

Singapore.

2009-04-07T21:00:00.001+08:00

9:01pm.
PEOPLE I'M BACK FROM THAILAND!!!
MANY MANY PHOTOS TO BE UPLOADED.

Cramps.

2009-03-30T00:33:00.003+08:00

Cramps for calf muscles.
Damn. Didn't stetch before warm up run.
Duh. I can't descend the stairs &i couldn't walk normal.
Shit!
Had MAC for breakfast with brother.
Cab down to NSC after, Half the totalled amount.
He, cheated my money. (:
I thought i was the only one there.
But, Jeddy was already there, having his breakfast.
&Junle, i don't really care hther he's there or not.
Anyway, the nowagian coach &coach kelvin,
plus some of the windsurfers went for a run.
Did stretching after in the gym.
Fixed my out haul.
Went for lunch, wanton noodles. (:(:
Back to NSC, rigged up &phew~
The wind was really strong today.
Very rare weather in singapore.
Went out for an hour plus.
Recovered, washed and wait for the equipments to dry.
Bathed, un rigged and started packing.
I think my sail is gonna tear in pattaya.
I'll do my best but despite the wind, I'm a little scare.
I'm not thinking ((:
D is returning tomorrow!!
Yipee.Finally but i'm leaving.
Nights people.
I miss JJ.
I miss,love my BOO!

edited.
I saw JJ today ((((:
Grew fatter means it eats well.
thanks to the scholars room.
Million thanks.
Bribaby, you're the best! (:
I don't want to share room with shili, if you care. (:

I will be.

2009-03-28T03:34:00.002+08:00

Went for facial today at jurong point, citibella.
Okay everything's good except for the squeezing part.
Effing painful. ): my face is like so red now.
&it looks like it's worst then before i went in.
Anyway, had lunch with jessprecious.
She flew over to thailand already.
Met jiahui, accompanied her to the gynae.
Then went to causeway after.
Watched - confession of a shopaholic.
& D called in the middle of the show.
I feel super guilty cause.. IDK.
I know it's not the first time.
It's also difficult for us to catch movie.
Cause the timing is always so wrong.
I'm sorry cause i've a curfew to follow.
Duh~ It's not gonna happen, again.
While talking a sudden urge to see him right away.
But i couldn't & it hurts.
I've kept you in my heart.
Deciding on a Gucci or Coach wallet.
I think i should stop thinking about all this stuffs now.
I need a PSP! So i wouldn't be bored on the plane.
Any kind souls?
Getting myself a I-pod touch. Brother says the price is getting lower.
PS:Mom, it was suppose to be my birthday present.
I miss JJ.
I love sweetheart.

All about you.

2009-03-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

10:07pm.
Introducing JJ. Named after jessprecious and my name.
A little kitty found in NSC.
Very adorable and i always wanted a pet of my own.
But JJ is not just mine, it's jessprecious, bribaby..
Sort of those whom contributed.
Not those whom are only interested for the first time,
throw respondsibilties around after. _|_
To whoever it may concern:
I've nothing against you but if you get any of my friends into trouble.
You die. How important is a friend to you when the friendship turns out well.
I bet you'll never understand.
It seems like you the kind, "friends for benefit". No doubts.
One last thing, you are SO EFFING FAKE.
3 more days. yahoo!
D is coming back!
But i'm flying, before that i'm gonna spend the whole day with him.(:
He asked me write letters to him but i hadn't even set ink on any paper.
Could i blog instead?
I haven't been writing for ages. I feel funny/weird/awkward towards myself.
I miss him like so much.
But life's like that, even in the future.
There are times where we have to be seperated due to regardless work or..
As long as our hearts are together, that's what that matters.
Through this time where i'm still tied down and you're in NS.
We don't have to see each another every single day, but i wished.
Anyway, i'm tired.
Facial appointment tomorrow.
Accompaning jiahui to the doctor.
See you earthlings.
D, you're my D (:(:(:

Relax.

2009-03-23T21:23:00.004+08:00

9:27pm.
Finally the 5 day competition is over.
& thankfully i manage to complete all races.
Compared to singapore open, endurance i guess.
I haven't been updating cause i'm resting or rather too lazy to use the computer.
Looking back the 5days 4nights in hostel past really fast.
Or is it because i was busy everyday.
I'm really glad it's over.
My family is back.
Why not D. ):
7 more days before i could see him.
It's good news that he's coming back on the 30th.
If not i wouldn't be able to see him before i leave.
That makes 3 weeks altogether.
I miss him like shit ass.
Sunday,
No church or rather skipped church.
Everyone was dead beat.
Woke up 12pm in the afternoon. Tired.
Went to vivo city then to expo then to century square.
Just to find the tights for windsurfing.
Went to expo to the addidas fair.
It's really a disappointment,
I pictured something better than what i saw.DUH.
Bought reebok tights, addidas shorts and a reebok windbreaker.
Thanks daddy.
Dad drop mummy and i at causeway point.
Went jean yip for hair treatment. D called me before(:
Thanks mummy.
Met old man for dinner with 9 other girls.
He was at republic poly for some musical concert.
We ate thai seafood at sembawang.
Head home after.
My face is peeling like shit.
I'm going for facial this week before precious leave.
Had swensens with mummy at tampines mall.
went jurong point to meet jessprecious and bri baby.
Bought 3 masks from the face shop. (:
Bought cleo and seventeen today.
Okay enough of my boring days.
Reporting tomorrow at 10am.
Training after.
Weather forecast states that it'll be raining for the rest of the week.
I miss sweetheart so very very much.
Do you know ?
Time fly please.
Bye people.

Relax.

2009-03-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

half gone.

2009-03-19T23:07:00.001+08:00

11:06pm.
I'm like half gone after today's competition.
Wind was like 0 to 5 knots.
Equals to if you don't/couldn't pump you'll die.
Damn it. What the eff.
Couldn't stand weather like this.
GOne for now, bye.
I miss D's call like so many times today.
&i feel bad.
I'm so sorry sweetheart.
I miss you so very very much.
Love you.

Tanned, dead.

2009-03-18T20:26:00.003+08:00

8:27pm.
Woke up at 8:05am.
Effing tired, i hope i could get another 10 hours of sleeping.
Without any disturbance.
Couldn't find any breakfast.
Got bread with nutella & tuna.
Precious was giving out her in heart mother's love.
Rigged up was as easy as 1 2 3.
Cause we didn't unrig. Due to the 5 day race.
No point rigging and un rigging.
Launched early today, good weather.
But very very hot. i think someone offended Mr. sunshine.
Wind was good. But tiring, very indeed.
I miss D so very very much.
No news from him yet.
I can't wait for the 3 weeks to fly.
Although i wish 31st march wouldn't arrive fast.
But still i wish i could see you soon.
I don't understand why there's still people who thinks that we wouldn't last.
2 years is not long but not short either.
Despite having to go through so many obstacles together.
I have faith in myself that you're the one.
&i'm gonna be firm on my decision.
Because it's my life.
Even if we're gonna hurt each another one day.
I would treasure &make good use of the time we spent together.
It's just so beautiful, a very nice piece of art.
Irreplaceable kind.
I love you sweetheart.
Good night.

Empty, Lonely.

2009-03-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

10:50pm.
I'm like so lonely starting from this morning.
When daddy called me asking me to take care and stuff,
& last of all. They're flying soon.
Argh... superb uncomfortable.
D is away, parents are away. Lonely me.
I'm gonna spend all racing days in hostel.
Equals to when my parents are back.
Not that they wanted me to stay, i volunteered.
Not too let my mind wander when i'm alone too.
Darling, i miss you so so much. But time will past.
Just that everyday would be very weird without your messages and calls.
Competition today, rain when reached nsc.
But only for like 15mins?
Waited and waited. The sun came out & i assume it's very angry.
Cause it was like so hot.
Wind started blowing like around 12pm but very light. 0.5knots?
Then launched, took like forever to reach pa.sigh.
2 races, glad that i completed both.
Positioned 10, 6 in order.
Went to parkway after with precious and baby.
Ate dinner, bought some stuffs, head back.
I've completed reading eclipse. Moved on to breaking dawn.
I miss D so very very much, it's only the first day.sigh sigh sigh.
Bye earthlings.

Happy,excited.

2009-03-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

11:14pm.
I'm blogging while watching incredible tales.
Not really scary, watched before.
But watching for the sake of watching.
Woke up effing late today.
Didn't get to eat breakfast before.
Ate after church, had korean noodles.
Then home to pack my stuff.
I didn't bring much cause i'm prepared not to get wet.
I met D at around 4pm.
It was raining cats and dog when i wanted to hail cab from parkway.
I was like half dreched when i reach there.
Anyway, few more people were there &idk anyone.
Chilled.
D &i cycled to Mac.
To hail cab, i went home alone today.
Reached home effing early like 7.45pm.
Pulled out my extensions while bathing.
Short hair now, light head.
A liitle weird but i'll consider again after the pattaya trip.
I need to trim my hair!
Going to sunplaza tomorrow. Breaking dawn has arrived!
Meeting D early tomorrow.
Teehee.
Many loves to you sweet heart.
I love, miss, need D!

Unwell.

2009-03-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

Well i could say things are better now.
Stupid morning run almost had my life.
Idk why, but it's really a killer.
Precious &i left early, sick &uncomfortable.
I waited for D to pick me up.
Went to his chalet.
Chilled there, It rained & time was like so fast.
Cab back to his house.
Thanks sweetheart for sending me home.
It's like so far, from east coast to woodlands den back again.
Nothing much today.
Training tomorrow.
Church tomorrow.
Meeting D tomorrow!!
Teehee. (:
I'm treasuring every single second/moment spend.
I'm sleeping with his shirt for the next 2 to 3 weeks.
Not sick in the mind please.
Eclipse is almost completed.
I sill counldn't find breaking dawn! Duh.
&shili bought it already. ahh!!
Darling is really sick now.
Asked i him not to join the chalet instead but he say he couldn't.
But it's okay as long as he's happy i'll always be there.right?!?!
Get well soon please.
I love my boyf!

breaking down.

2009-03-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

12:06am.
Freaking out now.
So many things crashing down.
The burden is really heavy, too heavy for me to carry.
Why does things have to become like this,
When everything was so near to perfect?
I really wished i could shout out every single thing in my mind.
I hate this, i really do.
Dad, you shot me right into my fragile heart.
Now it's shattered once again.
& i guess it'll no longer be mended. Cause you'll always be you.
Do you really love me, sometimes i wonder?
Or is it just some kind of over possessive thing.
I'm sick of having the cycle to repeat over and over again.
Enough! I don't want to be like some kind of 10 year old kid.
Being controlled even towards the person i chose to love.
Adults should always be mature or rather much mature than their child.
Damn it.
Eff to myself. Everything is my fault, HAPPY?
I'm not going to live in this world for you guys.
This is my life i over rule everything.
Even if you're gonna charge me again, i'm not doing anything illegal anyway.
Have you guys ever thought, if 1 day you were to leave this world.
What is gonna happen to me?
I'm 18 not 10. It's true i may be childish at times but,
I believe i have a clear picture of what am i doing.
Old man is right were heading no where but towards the wall, again.
Don't push blames on others when you didn't even get things right.
That totally piss people off, like totally.
I love you & my family but i don't deserve what i got.
Things could be so much better if you could just spare a little thought for me.
I'm dying soon.
Getting in to my coffin.
D save me please, i need you most now.
You promised to not leave me till you leave this world.
I promised not to leave you even until i leave this world.
Please keep your promise.
Never to leave me.
I love you.

Raining.

2009-03-09T14:52:00.002+08:00

3:01pm.
I'm sitting in the computer lab, rotting!
I miss D like so very very much.
Teehee. (:
Had a great morning.
Campbell marathon in the afternoon.
Rotting now. ):
SO SO SO BORED!!!!!!!!!

Sick, flu, happy.

2009-03-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

10:45pm.
Woke up for church, early.
But late so didn't had breakfast.
My stomach was drumming.
Went for breakfast after at 768.
Had rice, fries, nuggets and iced milo.
I couldn't finish the rice. (:
Went home after to get some stuffs.
To ag home to get my windsurfing gears.
To constant wind to get my harness den nsc.
Busy busy woman.
Lucky dad fetched me or i'l be lazy to train everywhere.
Rigged up, something worng with my sail today.
Couldn't get it flat. Or rather the shape was funny to me.
Super low tide. Muddy, leafy/grassy yucky sea.
Launched at 3pm.
Effing disappointed with myself today.
Stupid flu was killing me.
& the sun was angry.
4:30pm recovered couldn't stand it, any longer.
Un rigged & bathed.
Got a ride from a friend to the bus stop.
Save my legs from the far far distance.
Bus 36 to parkway to meet D. (:(:(:
Bus 966 to woodlands.
Had LJS for dinner.
Sweet heart you ate fried food & you're sick!!!!
Do drink more water alright.
After food break, den bus back home.
Sit under my block, talked and smoked.
Then home sweet home.
I'm talking to D on the phone.
I'm in my room wacthing tv using computer & phone.
Multi task-er. (:(: Normal for me.
Waiting for incredible tales to start!
Bye now.
I love D, very much indeed.

(:(:(:(:(:

2009-03-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

11:21pm.
D's sleeping already, he's sick.
He was fine this morning or rather the whole day,
Until we left his house. Oh my Gosh.
Get well soon, sweet heart.
I woke up at 5am today.
D met me under my block at 6am.
Trained down to habour front. Met eugene.
Monorail in to beach station.
Bus to tanjong beach.
It was raining, effing annoying.
Raining cats and dogs. ):
Went there to watch the milo tryathlon.
Chels, clare and people were either running, cycling or swimming.
I'm really glad D went with me.
But sorry that we didn't had breakfast before.He had gastric.):
I didn't really sleep much today.
Didn't realise that i was really tired until now.
Turning in soon.
After i shut down the laptop.
At the same time waiting for my hair to dry.
I might be changing extensions again.
Church tomorrow. training tomorrow. (:
Good night earthlings.
Had a great day with D.
I love D!

heartache.

2009-03-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

11:26pm.
I'm really speechless now.idk why.
The feeling is funny, uncomfortable &annoying.
It's a kind of shit ass feeling that i always not wanted.
Talking to D now.
I'm mostly answering not talking.
As blank as my mind is how quiet am i.
I hate myself for all this to happen.
But i've told myself, i've to move on in order for things to get better.
All this past have to get out of our life.
& it will trust me.
I'm turning in now. D is waiting to turn in together.
Bye earthlings.
Good night.
I need D.

Updates, updates.

2009-03-04T23:27:00.003+08:00

11:28pm.
It's not late now, not early too.
I'm speechless for whatever reasons.
I haven't been blogging for days, weeks, months?
I not busy but somehow, am busy.
Trainings, work, training and more work.
It's not weird if i fall sick again.
Despite the weather and climate.
I hate this month of the year, where there's no wind.
& the scorching hot sun is like every where during daylight.
& raindrops drip down like razor blades in the night time.
It totally suck!
I'm reading eclipse and yakuza moon in the mean time.
But more indulge in yakuza moon, effing nice book.
I'm almost done reading already.
Breaking dawn is still not available yet. Asshole.
I got my off day changed to today.
I spent every second wisely.(:
Didn't really went anywhere, was in woodlands.
My phone was sort of dead.& it's a good thing.
I WANT NOKIA E71!
I know i'm not financially stable or supported.
But a phone wouldn't kill me any much.
Daddy settled my phone bill temporarily, to be payback.
Equals to i'm in debt. ):
I'm on the phone while blogging with D.
Good night, earthlings.
I love, miss D!

Pictures,

2009-02-28T00:30:00.001+08:00

Teehee =D
I did this.
Photos took today.
Night now.

Bad tummy.

2009-02-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

12:25am.
Effing food poisoning!
It's like 3 days and it's still here, creating more problems.
Oh my gosh. So annoying.
I met D in the afternoon, finally today.
Went to his house to meet him then to causeway point.
Drumming stomach he had.
Did nothing much.
We seperated cause i've a program to attend.
The usual one. TIP, thank god it's the last.
Not that i didn't have fun, but it always falls on friday.
Anyway had loads of fun theer today.
Games, cards, chocolates.(:
Although i hardly eat chocolates.
I gave it to my mum. Cause it's M&M peanut.
She loves peanut.
Trained back to woodlands with D, he had dinner.
I couldn't eat, damn it.
The food poisoning, gastric, diarrhoea is seriously killing me.
D sent me home.
Good night.

Sleepy.

2009-02-24T14:08:00.003+08:00

2:09pm.
Nothing special about today.
I just felt like blogging.
Am suppose to be working now, but nothing much to do.
Effing boring.
Jessprecious is out for her physiotherapy.
I'm left with myself.(:
D is kind of hyperactive earlier on.
& very weird.But we're fine now.
Friday is coming soon, I can't wait to see you.
But i've program on friday that equals to 2 hours less.
Awww... ):
I might be going home later.
Reporting tomorrow.
Kohlaoliang's adventure race, i might not be going.
If i'm going to pattaya for windsurfing competition.
I don't think i could be qualified.
18 knots of wind?
DUH!!!!!!!
I'm so so bored.
Bye.
I love D!

Nothing in mind.

2009-02-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

11:17pm.
Time passes so slowly without you.
So meaningless.
Not that i'm saying what i'm doing now is meaningless.
Just, things will be very different with you around.
Much better, much more better.
Right, had a little tiff with D.
But not that bad, Fine now.
& i miss him, superb.
Sadly he wouldn't be booking out this weekend.
Aww... i'm gonna miss him so much.
D hadn't been replying my messages for hours.
He's in some kind of mission stuff.
Went to work today.
Nothing much.Didn't had breakfast nor lunch.
But tea break & dinner.
Training tomorrow. (:
I need a spare phone, anyone?
Blogshop rotting.
Please support.(:
Watching tv now. Tons of cd. But nice show.
Alright i'll stop here.
Bye earthlings.
I love, miss D!

sweetest addiction.

2009-02-20T00:47:00.002+08:00

Idk what's the hell time now.
I'm suppose to be asleep like 2hours ago.
But i end up still awake.
& blogging now.
I haven't blogged for a week?
Was not realy busy but, stayed out for 2 days.
Stayed in hostel, due to trainings.
This will happen every week.
At least 2 days of stay over.
I miss D really really much.
Till i couldn't concentrate on whatever i am doing.
Duh.
Nevermind.Nobody cares.
My legs are super tanned now.
Inappropriate/two-toned? I'm getting sailing tights real soon.
& the effing dirty seawater is killing my face.
Toxics/harmful.
Idk what i will be doing tomorrow.
Hopefully i'll be able to wake up late or get a off day or something.
Effing tired.
Cab back to woodlands from aljunied.
Chelsie sent me home. Straight home.Thanks,girl.
& she was afraid she didn't have enough money.
I only had a 50. I passed her the whole damn note.
Leaving myself with nothing. Ass.
Saw meisim at admiralty earlier on.
Chat,smoked,home.
Called D. Talked for 15 effing short mins.
I miss you sweetheart.
Bye earthlings.
I love D!

Effing shit.

2009-02-15T15:02:00.002+08:00

3:03pm.
Jessprecious predict that there wouldn't be windsurfing t6oday,
Due to the fitness test thing.
& i hate fitness test.
I ain't embarass to say it was like centuries ago,
When i last ran or attend gym sessions.
& i smoke.
That's the worst part of all.
I'm not trying to push the blame to my effing bad habit.
Running is totally out of my dictionary.
I hate running.It suck.
I'm now sitting in the classroom blogging.
Duh.Life is so boring.
Especially when you coudn't control your own life.
I can't wait for the year to pass.
I can't wait to say goodbye to 09.
I can't wait for 2010 to come.
I need life, i need a change.
I can't wait for me to turn 18.That is year 09 but december.
It's only febraury now.
Idk what will effing happen to me to skip fitness test.
I'm just saving my own ass.
I hadn't even thought that this would come.
I'm def not prepared.
D is having slight fever, resting now.
I wished i could be with him now.
Time please fly!!!!!
Stop taking your own sweet time to let the sun set.
It's time to pass the day.
I believe everybody is tired.
Bye earthlings.
I love D.

Happy V day.

2009-02-14T23:32:00.002+08:00

11:40pm.
I woke up effing early today.
As early as 6am & i slept like 2:30am?
Yesterday night was nightmare.
Anyway, i thought i would sleep in the bus like a loghead.
I didn't i was wide awake, listening carefully to every song played.
I was thinking we couldn't avoid quarrels so what should we do?
But we always end up throwing everything out.
If we could skip the quarrelling part.
It's perfect. Fact is nothing is perfect.
V day V day V day...
Nothing special cause to me everyday is V day!
Was supposed to have breakfast with daddy.
He woke up late.
Daddy sent me to causeway point.
Took 168 to bedok interchange.
& ms naomi say she'll be late.
Still while waiting, the music keeps playing.
Through the ear plugs and my lips.
& flash backs occupied my mind.
Went for training.
Was fun i guess.
Left nsc at 3?
Met D at causeway point.
Effing boring shopping centre.
Time for change!
Went woodlands centre.
And cab home.
I'm turning in right now.At this very moment.
Before i start to have dark circles.
I'm actually effing tired.
But i just think there's a need to update.
I love D.
Good night!

Complicated.

2009-02-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

10:30pm.
I didn't meant to be that way.
I know it's unusual but people change.
I love you, Sweetheart.
Maybe it's because we're together for long.
I got used to the presence of you or over.
Anyway, met D at his house.
Went out, obviously.
Here and there we still end up in causeway point.
Had Long john silver for lunch.
Went back to his house.
Chanel met me.
She updated me about stuffs.
& she went home.
Stayed in D's house until 8:30pm.
His dad sent me back.
I gave him the screwed up present.
I hope he likes it.
Meeting Naomi at bedok mrt tomorrow 9am.
So i'm turning in early tonight.
Good night earthlings.
I love you D!

Sweetheart loves.

2009-02-13T12:09:00.002+08:00

12:10pm.
I woke up like an hour ago.
Was super lazy to crawl out of bed.
I can't think of next week to come.
9am. 6A mattar road.
Effing far. Daily basis.
But i'm gonna do it, i promised.
I met D last night for dinner.
We went admiralty for KFC.
My new passport is ready for collection!
HooHoo.Idk what to write anymore.
I screwed up my valentine present for him.
But he still wants it.
I'm waiting for him now.
Will be meeting him in an hour or so.
I love D

Sleepy head.

2009-02-11T12:04:00.002+08:00

12:00pm.
I just woke up,
without sending my brother to the airport.
I didn't did it on purpose.
D is not contactable today.
I'm gonna rot at home!!
Super boring.
I'm suppose to be in the sea a few hours from now.
But it's already so so late
Despite leaving home i'm really SHAG.
To leave home and transport down to nsc.
If there's a staright bus, i wouldn't mind.
But too bad, it's woodlands here and east coast there.
If i have a car or bike or a chaffeur, I really would't mind at all.
D get your license fast you said you would bring me everywhere.
Too bad i wouldn't dare to drive.
Maybe as time goes by.
But def not soon.(:
I just hang up with jessprecious.
Nothing specific that i'll be doing today.
Especially when the whole world is like so dead.
Singapore need life!!!!
Bye, I miss D.

Addiction.

2009-02-11T01:13:00.002+08:00

1:15am.
Yesterday night was cruel.
But it's over.
Anyway, i woke up eighthirty in the morning.
Prepared and went for my reporting.
Met jessprecious at dhoby ghaut.
DXO has changed it's ownershp and renovated,
Someone approached me asking me to get the membership card.
Lasting for a year? Saying it's only for first 100 people.
Jessprecious and i each got one.
Had gelare in plaza sing.
chanel was suppose to join us but she's stuck in hostel.
We'll come out together one day alright.
Walked around & i bought another pair of sandals.
From image turn.
I shouldn't have bought in bugis yesterday.
I like the one i bought today.
I got both so..
We walked to orchard.
Went for party world.
Singing our anger out? HAHA.
Sing to vent anger sounds cool.
I went back to ag after, it's a waste of time i shouldn't had went back.
Head home after.
I'm sending m brother to the airport tomorrow.
& most probably wind surfing later in the noon.
Sweetheart loves for mr chua.
D wouldn't be contactable tomorrow.
Some out field thing.
I'm gonna miss you so so much.
Good night, love.

Valentine.

2009-02-11T00:56:00.002+08:00

1:01am.
Past two days i didn't really get to sleep.
It's freaking irritating when nobody understands.
How tired am i.
Monday have to send sister to school.
Tuesday reporting.
What the hell, my eye lids are like super heavy?
& obviously if this carry on my eyebags will come out.
After being in the sea plus sun my face is like.WOW.
Pimples, sun burnts.
& i'm tanned again. Just the lower body and my face.
Cause i had rash guard on.
I think it's funny to have double skin colour,
But better than people mistaking me as a malay?
I'm not naturally tanned but easily tanned.
So one day is already enoughnot saying three?
I got to meet D on sunday before he booked in.
Somewhere near my block, at a resident corner.
Just to see each another and talk.
Monday, i sent sister to school in the morning.
Met chanel in causeway point.
Had Macdonalds for breakfast.
Took my ID photo.
Waited for like 45mins? Effing hell.
Went to city hall to return DVD.
Met jessprecious at raffles Mrt.
Trained down to lavender to get my passport renewed.
Going overseas in march !! HooHoo.
Went to bugis. Got a top, sandals, Long pants, bag.
I spent like it was nobody business.
The top was twelve bucks, sandals twenty,
Long pants thirtytwo and the charles and keith bag was forty bucks?
Haha.I know i shouldn't spent like how i did.
Anyway, went to Jp nothing much actually.
Saw beelin, cindy & co.
Then waited for daddy to finish work.
Fetched me & we went home.
D i love you!

Hot&cold.

2009-02-08T17:34:00.001+08:00

HOT AND COLD
You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me
[CHORUS]
Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring
I should know thatYou're not gonna change
[CHORUS]
Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coasterCan't get off this rideYou change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes[CHORUS]

Finally.

2009-02-08T17:14:00.003+08:00

5:15pm.
Finally i'm back home sitting ifront of the computer.
I'm so dead, after 3 days of racing.
It's a killer, i swear.
I didn't race all races but the new sail & board is really a big no no.
Nobody wears a new dancing shoes to a dancing competition.
True enough i made that mistake.
I didn't regret, experience.
Got a position 6th and 2nd.
I didn't race today cause i'm really not well.
The feeling suck to the effing core.
But it's over for now.
More trainings coming up.
I'm gonna get hold of the 7.8m sail!!
Idk how long it'll take but i'll try.
Old man is really demanding. He don't understand what the hell am i going true.
What passion of a windsurfer & stuff.
I'm not a robot.
People can do it doesn't mean that i could or i should.
Resting for 2 days wednesday back to training. :)
My hand has a super big hole, blister.
Flesh insight makes me puke. Disgusting.
My legs is full of scratches, do i deserve all this?
So it's my fault to be so clumsy.
Gosh i don't want to talk about it anymore.
Had a little arguement with D last night.
But we're fine now.
I thought i would be able to see him but no i didn't had a chance,
& he's booking in tonight, Damn it.
I'm sorry, sweet heart.
My blogshop is rotting.
please support!!!!
SUPPORT!
Bye people.

Sleepy.

2009-02-04T23:44:00.002+08:00

11:45pm.
I'm not going to write much.
I superb sleepy now.
& idk why.
Just hang up the phone with D.
Piano lessons tomorrow.
To causeway to get cake & to sister's school.
Nsc to try the new equipments.
Bye earthlings.
I'm really sleepy.
& i told D i'm sleeping now.
Darling, you know you love me.
:) :) :) :)

Different.

2009-02-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

1:10pm.
If i'm at home now i wouldn't know what will i be doing.
Anyway, i'm in hostel now.
Stayed over last night.
Mainly because i've to reach MOE at 7.45am.
Superb early okay.
Didn't come back for so long.
Things are mostly the same except for some.
Due to the trainings i woke up at 8am? On monday?!?!
To bring my sister to breakfast and to school.
I'm doing my part as a sister :)
Head home after.
Planned to sleep but failed to.
I just lie on my sofa,
Half of myself watching tv & the other dead.
I couldn't move. Even to smoke.
Until 2pm i left home.
Reached ag & went for a run. ?!?! Duh.
& went to geylang for macdonalds with jessprecious and chanel.
We planned to dine at payar lebar,
But the bus we took was crowd with people with awesome BOs.
Damn it.Air pollution.
We ate and went to payar lebar.
Went to print photos.
& head back to ag home.
Bathed & stuff.
Guess what, we played Big 2 and blackjack.
It's like gambling den in our room.
It was effing hilarious but really fun.
Some kind of girls sleepover.
Exception, no alcohol, no smoking.
It's cool.
I was talking to D while playing.
Multi task.
I turned in ear;y cause i was really restless.
& old man came out to our room when we were playing.
It was like the 4 of us starring at each another.
Not knowing what to do.
But we got off, when we talk he was going to scream his lungs out.
Luaghed, talked, played, Sleep.
D called me in the morning like 5:50am?
To wake me up actually.
But jessprecious slept late so she slept until 6:30am.
Left ag & head to tanah merah to wait for ms naomi.
She was late.
& i was all the long half dead cause it was effing early.
Teaching the students were really fun.
Rewinding & reflecting back on me for my first in windsurfing.
Went tampines mall for lunch & bought some stuff back.
Now i'm sitting in the computer lab blogging.
HooHoo~ The air con is satisfying due to the hot weather.
Come back later.
Bye earthlings.
I love D.

Shrunk.

2009-02-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

9:31pm.
2 days gone for windsurfing.
Saturday was NTU open windsurfing championships.
& sunday training.
Damn tired.
Saturday, Left home at 8am.
Have to reach Nsc at 9am?!?!
Effing early. But but but i did sleep early the day before.
So not so bad just not used to waking up so early.
Reached at 8:30am. Rigged up & waited.
Sailed over to Pa & had briefing.
Launched and race start.
4:15pm back to Nsc. Un-rigged waited for de brief.
Went home. Had dinner with relatives.
Mahjong. I won :):):)
HooHoo.
Sunday, training.
Requested not to be waken up for church.
Woke up at 11:30am.
D's mum called to get his photo from me.
Left home at 1pm.
Reached at 2plus because mum drived?
It's the first time i use a harness after windsurfing for so long.
It'll def takes time to get used to it.
But it's really cool.
You get to hook on & stuff.
Singapore open windsurfing championships, this friday saturday & sunday.
3 days straight, i'm dead for sure.
My fingers are going to tear away from my hand.
Duh.Anyway, has ipoh hor fun for dinner at old town white coffee.
Nice soothing soup after a long day.
Wind was very gusty today.
Good night earthlings.
I love D.

Random.

2009-01-30T20:18:00.004+08:00

8:19pm.
It's only 20mins past 8.
Oh my gosh. It's so super early.
Anyway, i left house at 6am sharp today.
Heading toward D's house.
Yesterday was freaking down.
I met him for dinner at casueway.
Had LJS for dinner.
Walked around & causeway point is seriously rotting.
Hopefully they'll get it upgrade or extend it.
It no longer has the shopping mood.
It was boring so..
We decided to sit under my block.
Another place of boredom.
Talked awhile, & he sent me home.
Some birthday party with his friends.
He was supposed to leave sembawang park before midnight charge comes.
Instead he called & said he had to rush back to camp.
My heart fell like hell.
I know i shouldn't be like this but..
We were supposed to meet early in the morning the next day.
I told him it was too sudden & my heart is small.
Lol. what a thing to say.
Slept at 2am.
My phone rang at 5:30am in the morning.
I almost didn't answer the call.
Too early to be answered without me knowing.
It shows "love" on the screen.
He's back at home.
HooHoo.
I went over.
In 10mins time we were both asleep.
Until 11:30am.
We were both half awake.
Talked & played around & we left his house.
To causeway for breakfast+lunch.
Had macdonalds. Tasted like shit.Standards dropping.
Anyway,walked around and Same old words. Causeway is boring.
I left for my program, he stayed to meet aaron.
Prgram was really cool today.
Loads of laughters & no seriousness.
Non changed. Except for 1 or 2?
D came to braddell to fetch me.
Thank you, D.
We trained back to admiralty.
Sat at the residential corner to waste time.
It was far too early for me to go home.
& D is going out.
Sad for me he wants me to go home.
From 7pm till now.
I've been sitting infront of the computer.
Turning in early tonight, competition tomorrow.
Sweet dreams.

Restless.

2009-01-29T13:36:00.002+08:00

1:37pm.
Woke up at 9am.
Bath & got prepared and left home about 9:45am.
& eff to me.
I forgot my reporting was at 10am.
What the hell was i thinking?
Something is wrong with me.
Anyway i got there as soon as the transport took me.
Would rather cab down if i weren't so broke.
Reached Mcys at 10:42am.
Nice. Effed but not so bad.
Until 11:30am.
Left & head home.
I'm meeting D for dinner later.
HooHoo can't wait to see him.
Sweeyheart don't worry no matter what you're always shining in my heart.
Febraury is approaching in days.
Cheers to all.

Everything matters.

2009-01-29T13:23:00.003+08:00

1:24pm.
Okay, it's not normal for me to blog now.
But i've got nothing to do.
Except to rot at home.
I'm oficially discharged from hostel.
Cool.
I've been waiting. Now time please fly to july as soon as possible.
Due to my unsucessful appeal to ite.
I'm going back to hostel to help out & stuff.
& that includes windsurfing.
Competition this saturday.
Duh. idk if i could make it.
Went back to ag home yesterday.
Went out with old man, mummygrace, jesspresious and bribaby.
To get harness.
He spent like a thousand bucks in just a day.
Sounds alot to me. But who knows i might be the one next time.
8 Magic marine life jackets for ag home.
& a neilpryde harness.
Wow. windsurfing really is a expensive sports.
& we went to nsc and manamana at had dinner ay east coast.
Head back to ag and i went home.
Long day i reached home at around 8pm.

Rainbow addictions.

2009-01-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

12:05am.
Today i woke up at 6:01am,
with the name "Love" appearing on my handphone screen.
He called to wake me up.
I told him i'm gonna reach his house by 7am sharp.
I know it sounds crazy but,
We don't see each another like every day?
It can be as short as once a week.
Due to my training schedules.
Only falls on weekends.
He only book out of weekends.
So our timing couldn't par at all.
I'm sorry, sweetheart.
I was early but he fell asleep.
I manage to get him up when i reach his house.
The whole singapore was like so dark so quiet so eerie.
Yuck.I was so alone so cold.
Everything was so DARK!
I was happy to see him.
We talked & we both fell asleep.
Went over to his relative house.
And we left at 5:30pm.
He sent me home cause my aunties are coming over.
I really wished one day i could bring him home.
Without anything to hide.
To have dinner together.
I don't understand why.
I'll wait for the very special day t come.
Darling, i'm missing you very very much now.
Many many loves.

Sweetest Romance.

2009-01-27T23:39:00.002+08:00

11:45pm.
Hoo Hoo.
I'll start with the first day of new year.
I woke up like 10plus?
New year is like a normal day for me.
Parents were't going anywhere.
Brother went to PA to windsurf?!?!
I'm left with me, myself & i.
Pathetic.
But but but, D asked me over to join him.
So wasn't that bad at all.
Or rather it was great.
Everything that has him is beautiful.
Imagination, i'm not sick in the mind.
I had a good day with him.
Being a very less talkative person.
It's very difficult for me to face crowds of people.
Anyway, everything was fine.
Until around mid afternoon, dad text me to go for dinner.
He mentioned a MUST.
Met them in causeway.
Super empty, i've never seen the shopping centre so quiet before.
Had swensens, presto salmon & cookie craze.
Throat hurting stuffs. Ice cream is super fattening.
Duh. But new year never mind. Haha.
I'm too bored.
Went home. & there goes the first day of new year.

Lonely new year.

2009-01-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

10:01pm.
I wasn't suppose to be sitting infront of the computer so early.
For some reasons.
Slept at 2am in the morning.
Cause cousins were here for mahjong.
I didn't join in.
Had early reunion dinner yesterday with gandma.
Had steamboat. Wasn't really like steamboat.
Maybe because there was only 6 of us.
I haven't seen gandma for so long.
She look younger than usual. I'm not lying.
Then i was stuck with the computer through the night.
The puzzle is half way done.
I'm gonna complete it by tomorrow morning.
Eve of chinese new year.
Went for training today.
National sialing centre was so empty.
I guess it's the season.
Wind was good. Drizzled a little.
Overall training was good.
Went home, had early dinner.
Went admiralty to look for jiahui.
Bought some things & head home.
My face is red like cherry.
Idk why, there's no sun today.I guess it's sensitive.
Nothing much to blog today.
Waiting for D to call me.
I wished i was waiting to see him.
XOXO.

photos.

2009-01-24T18:03:00.002+08:00

The pictures are so big!!

Bye to bells.

2009-01-24T15:42:00.005+08:00

3:43pm.
I know i don't blog at this time but i haven't update for 4 days already.
From monday, everything was nothing.
Or rather i couldn't remember what i was doing.
First 3 days was simply rotting & rotting.
And worst of it, D wasn't contactable. Stupid outfield.
I remebered i accompanied jiahui to the doctor in admiralty.
We slacked around her boyf was there too.
& then xiao matt came, i went home.
I think one day i'll rot until i grow fungi/fungus,
whatever its called.It doesn't matter anyway.
& i met zoe supposingly to meet jiahui for lunch also.
But she didn't come, claimed that she'd fallen asleep. ASS!
Was at the salon earlier in the afternoon.
Then zoe came.
Saw a ex school mate.
He is studying in the effing simei ite!
Damn it.
Had lunch at 630 coffee shop.
The char siew mee suck!
Went to my block talked awhile.
& she left.
Thursday, piano lessons.
New/more chords are coming!!
I don't think i could play both hands together, my hands/fingers are retarded.
Friday! yahoo!
I left house at 8:30am in the morning.
Went to D's house.
Bloody hell my knee was cracking like hell yesterday so i cab down.
Obviously there was nothing much to do.
But But But his presence made everything nice.
Watch a cartoon show. Interesting.
We ended up in causeway.
Causeway is effing boring already.
But depending on the the person you go with.
Gelare ice cream + milk tea = nausea/vomit/uneasy/effing uncomfortable.
Or maybe because there's something wrong with me.
Met up with lawlen & xiao matt.
Talked awhile, lawlen left.
We 3 went back to the shopping centre AGAIN.
Walk walk walk, rounds rounds rounds.
D sent me home.
I slept at 5am in the morning.
& pictures of myself in the new hair.
Happy chinese new year to all!!!!!

Extensions.

2009-01-20T13:26:00.002+08:00

1:27pm.
I'm rotting at home now.
Nowhere to go, no one to talk too.
Darn, Boring.
D i miss you like hell.
It feels kind of funny without your text or call before i sleep.
& i slept like 2:30am in the morning?
I didn't did it on purpose.
one: i couldn't sleep.
two: I was talking to jiahui on the phone.
three: i miss you.
HAHA.
I didn't update my blog for days accumalating to weeks.
Getting lazier & lazier each day that pass by.
Cause everyday is boring!
Wednesday tomorrow.
Then you'll be back.HooHoo.
Yesterday i woke up like 9am in the morning.
Jessprecious woke me up.
To go city plaza & also to get my Clipons.
But in the end i got back extensions.-.-
But the hair feels better then the previous one.
Alot better. Idk how long will this last but hopefully till my hair grow.
To a acceptable length i think.
I feel very funny cause this time i had straight ones on instead
Of the preious permed.
But i have tongs so i can curl it anytime i want.
Met precious at 11 at payar lebar.
She took out all of her extensions & re clip it up at another shop.
& i didn't realise we've been there for 5 long hours.
Went to eat singpost macdonalds yeaterday.
Rekindle the past where we eat mac breakfast everyday.
Or at bedok? Haha.
Seriously one year can hold alot of memorable memories.
I laughed to myself whenever i think back.
I didn't think that i would find a friend like you in hostel.
Very rare, i rely on you alot.
Although we don't share the same room now.
We will after new year.
Hopefully only the 2 of us.
So cool.
I'm going back to hostel to "work".
I don't know how to specify it but as simple as it can be.
Work.
Cause there's nothing for me to do out here.
ITE is not giving me a chance study.
Thnaks zoe for inroducing her job to me.
But i turned her down yeaterday cause the decision was final.
I'm sorry girl.
Am accompanying jiahui to the doctor later.
She says her throat itch.
Bye for now.
Hopefully i'll blog at night.

Fascinating Legends.

2009-01-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

11:15pm.
I'm blogging so early today,
Not really early but earlier then usual.
D text me like 4:45am in the morning.
I replied & he told he's not going to reply me until midnight?!?!
Duh.Out for mission, idk what's that.
Army life is really tough.sigh.
The whole day was spoilt because my application to ite failed.
It's really annoying, & it affects my mood.
I was woken up by countless of messages asking how was my application.
& it turned out like that.
Anyway, brother was back from thailand.
He bought me 2 tank tops. The ones which has SINGHA at the back.
Looks small but when i wear it, it's kind of too big.
But i still want it, cause he bought it for me.
I can wear it at home.
I think i've a blueblack at my back, somewhere in the middle?
Super painful, most probably caused by the lorry ride yesterday.
Bathed & accompanied brother to eat at causeway.
My stocks arrived today. But i didn't get it.
Cause i was asleep when the postman came.
Sorry Mr. postman.
I don't knwo how to advertise my blogshop.
I really hope there will be sales coming in soon.
I'm not gonna give up.
PLEASE SUPPORT!!
Met up with a blogshop owner but ain't confrim is the owner,
Got meisim's skirt for her & met meisim to pass it to her.
Complicated but actually very simple.
Went to watch redcliff 2 today. with brother.
I rate it 6/5. It's really nice.
Although i have not watch the first part yet.
The graphics was awesomely awesome.
& the way they planned was really good.
I'm in love with the horse-mengmeng.
Effing cute horse.
Went home, then to dinner.
I completed a spherical jigsaw puzzle.
It's a world map or a map.
I told myself i would never buy a sperical puzzle for myself.
Next i'm gonna start on a normal flat one.
2000 pieces i think.I'm gonna complete it myself.
Idk why i can sit infront of a puzzle for so long.
Hobby i guess, since young.
I hope my room will be hanged of countless of puzzles i completed myself.
It will come true one day, i swear.
Goodnight,earthlings.
Goodnight,d.

I miss my darling.

2009-01-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

12:10am.
I should be sleeping soon after blogging.
Promised D that i would learn to turn in early.
Have you ever realised i never calle you baby anymore?
Until the day you realize, i'll give you a stupid answer.
I LOVE YOU
You're not booking out until saturday & i've training on that day!
DUH~
I'm afraid that i wouldn't be able to see you!
I guess i'll get used to it one day.
Until the day comes, i'll be lying in he coffin already.
Hopefully Chinese new year there wouldn't be any single training.
& i pray hard for time extension.
I know it would be hard that's why i pray.
Sweetheart, I'm really sorry.
I red those messages to you, i feel relief.
It's kind of difficult to really accept those all by myself.
It's a killer.I hate it.Eff to her & eff to the things she wrote.
Even you're a engo lingo person,
There's many ways you can name someone.
Nobody can accept xxxx,xxxxxxx, trust me,NOBODY!
& obviously that includes me.
Eff away from him.
I don't care if you think that i'm unresonable or WHATEVER!
Just eff off!
I'm sick & tired of hearing/reading all this.
This post supposed to be posted like weeks ago,
But i don't give it a damn.
Woke up at 9:44am. D called me, cause i told him to.
To prevent me from ignoring the alarm on my phone.
Piano lessons, learnt jingle bells.
& when i text daddy he told me:"ting tong bill over la"
Cute daddy! That's why i love him!
Went home & computer was down. Boring.
I tried to look like all over my contacts to see who would be a kind soul.
& zoe was liek ahving a fashion emergency.
She needs clothes for her modelling/shooting.
Went to her house. Rekindle the past & we went to bishan with her friend.
Walked the whole of junction 8 & she only bought 3 t-shirts from OP.
Anyway, her friend drove her to chongpang & me to causeway.
To meet aaron. He was with a friend.
Nothing much, took a puff at the DESIGNATED SMOKING AREA.
& we left, he took 901 and i took 912.
I get to eat my fried ice cream today!! HooHoo~
Didn't really talked to D today.
He's kind of busy i guess.
"i'm gonna fall in soon,text you later."
Repeatedly for 3 to 4 times today.
Gosh i miss you badly!.
I'm off to bath now. Sleeping right after.
GOODNIGHT, D!

hello.

2009-01-13T22:32:00.003+08:00

10:34pm.
I'm talking to my boyf now.
I have not updated for like days.
It's kind of not busy but leazy days.
Nothing much happened.
It's all boring days actually.
I've decided to pierce my vertical labaret.
& i want to get it done soon!
That's all i've to blog about.
But i don't wish to end it so short.
But i don't what to talk about.
My boyf?
Duh~
We're working things out.Or rather doing good.
I know i love you.
I know i miss you.
I think about you all the time.
You were my heaven's sent.
I will appreciate everything i do for you or the other way.
The past is for us to remember and not dwell.
The future is for us create and live in.
XOXO~

eff to me & to all.

2009-01-09T23:11:00.006+08:00

11:15pm.
I'm very very tired.
But i couldn't sleep,idk why.
And my tiredness brought in frustrations and irritations fast.
Without second thought, i just let my attitude flow.
Like any other girl, MOODSWINGS.
I know i wouldn't be able to sleep even if i try hard.
I know myself well enough.
Somehow rather i just wished i would be able to light a cigg,
Take in a deep breath & puff & puff..
I bet it would feel rather satisfying.
I swear it isn't addiction it's just like another bad habit of mine.
Irritating & super annoying sister.
I just hate it when i need to share a room with you.
Ya people say that you're adorable,
Does it make you effing 10 years older,
To think that your the queen of the house.
C'mon, wake up your bloody idea,
You're just a effing 8 going to 9 year old kid.
Just do what you should do & stop showing me your effing atitude.
I've nothing against you.
You're my blood sister.Who wouldn't die to have a yound one to love?
It's just that mum has pampered & spoilt you.
& you are what you shouldn't be today.
Looking at other families, i'm much more fortunate.
But it's you whose ruining every single happiness i longed for.
& i guess i'll never get it.
It will always stay as a longing.
Getting further & further away each day.
I think i'm kind of cooled down now.
Splurging everything out without a sec paused.
It's a long long journey..
Woke up at 7am today. what the eff.
Reached darling house at 8:20am.
Didn't do much. Just talking about all he past memeories & other stuffs.
& left around 1pm.
Went home,
& obviously i turned away from the very tempting bed in my room.
Sat in the living room & waited for the time to pass.
& jianan called me to share cab down.
You know i'm a lazy bum i wouldn't turn away such offer.
Waited again.
I didn't that today's program is starting at 3pm.
I happily waited for the time to pass.
& we're late for 30mins.
Sweetie, the 12th is just round the corner.
XOXO~
Goodnight&bye.

Head over heels.

2009-01-09T01:46:00.002+08:00

1:46am.
As usual i'm awake now.
Plan to sleep after blogging.
Woke up at 9:30am but laze in bed for 15 minutes without realising.
Bathed & left home for piano lessons.
Was fun & i swear i was super enthu in that 30mins time.
Went to the library & i couldn't find any ooks i was looking for.
So only one thing to say the library suck totally.
Went to popular in the end.
Bought 'twilight' the novel.
Can't wait to read.It's still new in the wrapping now.
Head home after.
Nothing much happen i just slacked at home,
with the tv & 2 computers on.
Haha. I didn't know what the hell i was doing.
&i got a call from you.
At first i thought i fell asleep or something &i was dreaming.
But it turned out not.
Hey sweetie, i'm really really happy that you're out.
& i can at least get your messages.
The feeling is really AWESOME.trust me.
It's good to have you back.
Although it does feel kind of weird.
We ate, talked & laughed.
Nothing seems the same anymore.
&i guess thats what it takes takes to start anew?!?!
I'm gonna stop crapping now.
Waking up in 5 hours time.
Going over to your house in 6hours.
Goodnight to me.
Bye earthlings.

Nice.

2009-01-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep my hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
no matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed the truth is a
stranger soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free to..
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

(Chorus)
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you

I'm sick of playing all of these games
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver, it hurt enough to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I love you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you

if I live every moment,
won't change any moment,
there's still a part of me in u
I will never regret you
still the memory of you
marks everything I do.
oooh..

(Chorus)2x
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're in my heart just like a tattoo

just like a tattoo
I'll Always have you

Home alone.

2009-01-07T22:28:00.002+08:00

10:28pm.
Was talking to daddy on web cam previously.
I'm planning to sleep early today cause there's piano tomorrow morning.
Mummy says daddy is coming back tomorrow at about 11plus.
Will be waiting for him!!!! at home.
It's thursday tomorrow. Time swings so fast.
I really really hope that everything will be fine.
Sweetie, i miss you.
Flashbacks came into my mind.
Whatever i do, whatever i say.
It keeps playing back.
Regardless the good or bad time.
But somehow rather the flashbacks always make me end up with a little smile.
Woke up super late today.
At 1:43pm, i remebered so well cause i looked at my watch.
Stayed home the whole afternoon
Except i went down to the coffeeshop when i was super hungry.
Wanted to bear with it but i couldn't.
Had a burger.& side dishes of fries and fried bun.
I miss NYDC!! Waiting for brother to come back,
He says he's gonna treat me & precious to NYDC.
I might be mapling later. haven't been touching for days.
Will see how.
Goodnight, sweetheart.
Bye earthlings.

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Good bye.

2009-01-06T01:31:00.002+08:00

1:32am.
Woke up super early today.
4:30am. Miracle that i didn't laze in bed.
I woke up right after the alarm rang.
Reached airport at about 6:30am.
Daddy went to check in & we had our breakfast after that.
Had charsiew mee & daddy had prawn noodles.
Daddy says i'm weird to drink iced milo at 6plus in the morning.
Lol i think it's okay although i'm like the only one having cold drinks.
Daddy checked n & i almost cried out when he gave me a hug,
Before he went in.
Daddy i miss you so so much.
I realise how important it is to have parents.
I'm waiting for you to come back.
Went to meet huiwen after that.
Slacked at the minimart near aghome.
Went in at about 8:30am.
Was super tired.I missed my bed for that moment.
Ms Justyna came like 10plus.
Talked to her & let ag home at 11:30am.
Accompanied huiwen to her salon with xingyu.
To get her pay. She was like so happy.
Shopped at topshop and got leggings.
My 2nd pair of leggings, first one was stolen in ag.Damn it.
Went over to dorothy perkins, and head back to woodlands,
While they went to seng kang.
When i reach causeway was like only 1pm.
Super early, don't feel like going home since i'm already out.
Decided to catch a movie alone.
But rang aaron up to check if he's free.
Before he came, coincidentally bumped into zoe & jiaqi.
& the 4 of us watch twilight together.
My 2nd time watching.
Edward colins is really cool.Although he was human's most dangerous predator.
He really loved isabella swan.
It's really amazing.
I wished you could love me like how edward loved isabella.*smile*
I know you can, sweetie.
Hoohoo~
Reached home at 6pm.
Waited for 6:45 to fetch sister.
2 more days.
I'm really happy when your mum called me to say that you're not angry!!!
All the heavy burdens off my shoulder.
Bye bye extensions. i'm back to short hair again.
My hair really grew quite alot. (:
Anyway i'll be getting clip ons soon.
So i've a choice to go out with long or short hair.
The whole house feels so quiet without daddy's goodnight kiss.
I'm blogging while lookng out for supplers from overseas.
& finally i found one! thank god.
I'm sleeping now.
Meeting jiahui tomorrow for lunch & i told her i wouldn't be late.
I will be waiting for her!!
So i better sleep now to prevent me from not able to wake up tomorrow.
Good night sweetheart.
Bye earthlings.

Weak &dead.

2009-01-05T00:03:00.002+08:00

12:03am.
I didn't update for days.duh.
Time is running out.
Extended home leave ending soon.
Darling, i miss you.
I'm really sorry for all those criticism i've said.
I didn't mean it, really.
I didn't know what i said will affect you so much.
I feel bad writing all those stuffs to you, i'm deeply sorry.
The 8th is coming soon.Gosh.
Pray that nothing will happen.
I love you truly with all my heart.
With no doubts nor indecisiveness.
I just didn't want our relatinship to end up like any others.
I want us to be happy,
To feel good in this relationship we've created.
Countless of unsucessul relationship i've gone through,
I treasured, fight, debabte so much cause i know you're not one of a kind.
I really hope you understand how i feel.
i just felt so insecure so afraid of loosing you.
You're my one & only boyf.

Woke up for church today.
Super tired.
I fell asleep in church as usual,
Some funny weird things happened.
Don't want to talk about it.
Went for training after that.
So lazy.!!
Haven't been in the sea for weeks.
The wind was still strong but very very shifty.
Ain't used to it.
But everything was good.
Somehow rather i think that ag girls are so condemned.
Bribaby thinks so too.I'm not the only one.
Ms naomi gave a windbreaker that has a singapore logo &
A tag that says 22nd sea games.vietnam.2003.
Cool windbreaker.
I kind of made the decision that i'm not going to take up the scholarship.
Just by thinking of it makes me feel tied down.
I'm sorry PPC.
Sleeping early tonight.
Waking up at 430am later.
Sending my precious daddy to the airport.
He's going to china for business trip.
I'll miss you.
1 week !! Gosh.
Company so many people why my daddy.
Heading to ag home after that.
PO is coming.!!
Sleeping now.Good night.
Bye earthlings.

2009!

2009-01-01T01:53:00.001+08:00

HAPPY YEAR 2009!
WILL UPDATE SOON!

2009!

2008-12-31T01:34:00.003+08:00

1:34am.
I'm always awake.HooHoo.
Haven't been blogged for a few days since my bloshop opened.
I really really hoped there will be customers.
It's like not seen at all except meisim.(thanks alot)
No ads no nothing.
Have been hiding at home for the past few days.
Did nothing except blogshop blogshop & blogshop.
So i really really hope people will start viewing.
It's 2009 in like another 23 hours? Time slides so quickly.
& i guess it's time to really start anew.
Meaning to also get away from those bad memories and stuff.
2009:
New year, new start!
Shopping.
Find a part time job,anybody needs helper?
Choose to study or take up the scholarship.
Learn piano fast fast fast!
Get a laptop real soon.
I-touch.(coming soon)
Competition in Feb.
My hair to grow.
End probation.
Japan,HongKong,Taiwan,Perth.
God to bless my beloved family.
Awaiting for 2009 12th,14th,23rd,25th & 31st.
To have you back to my side again.

Busy Busy Busy.

2008-12-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

12:30am.
I didn't update for the past few days because,
I'm like browsing through every blogshop that catches my eye.
And just by looking at 1 kills alot of time.
Went for church wedding on Saturday morning.
Mum's colleage.
I love church weddings!
Everything's like so pretty & beautiful (no difference actually)
It's just so AWESOME.
Stayed at home for the whole saturday and sunday!
Nothing much.
Busy with my new blogshop!!
Please support!

closet-shop-fashion.blogspot.com

Bye Earthlings!

Movie marathon?

2008-12-27T18:16:00.003+08:00

6:17pm.
I didn't blog yesterday cause computer was down.
I usually blog after i bath. But dad didn't bring his laptop back yesterday.
House computer was down. Brother needs his computer.
I'm left with the TV.
Yesterday brother's girlfriend was supposed to fly back to shanghai.
But she didn't cause she don't want to.
Extended till 31stdecember. Better then nothing.
Went to watch 2 movies yesterday.
Bedtime stories & I.p man.
Both were great movie but i still haven't watch twilight!!
What the hell.
That was the show i wanted to watch so badly.
I'll watch it definitely.
Watch bedtime stories in the morning, with brother, girlfriend &sister.
Was ok, very fantasy kind of movie. Raining gumballs? Duh.
I.p man was in the evening.
Worth to watch.
Very touching and a liitle violent. Rate 5 for that.
Watched with brother, girlf, sister.
Went home after that.

Sick-ning!

2008-12-26T02:23:00.002+08:00

2:25am.
Again, i'm still awake now.
Darling, life so quiet without you.
Everyday, i just hoped &wished that you were here with me.
Although i'm disappointed with all the things i've heard.
I still longed for you to come out.
The love is still so strong, i couldn't explain it myself.
I don't know about you.
I may be a shy retarded in the past that don't care,
Whatever,whoever that happen or comes in between us.
But i'm not the joyce i used to be in the past.
Fighting hard for what i want is not wrong at all.
Unless.. we're really over.
The 12th, 14th, 23rd, and 25th, gone in just a blink of an eye.
But i look forward to the upcoming year.
I need you,so please let me hear from you soon.

Slept at 4am again.
I'm so unhealthy. But god is with me!!
Supposingly to attend church at 9am, But i woke up at 10:45am.
So went for the 11:15am service.
I hate periods!
Everything was smooth until we finish eating at bukit timah plaza.
The cramps came like 1000 elephants stepping on my tummy!
So unlucky to have it on CHRISTMAS.
We went to a new place call marina barrage.
I would have enjoyed myself if the cramps are not there.
The place is big and the scenery is very nice.
A good place for couples too, I think.
I couldn't even walk properly. Finding place to sit everywhere i go.
I saw this lady who is so fat & her clothes are like stuck to her body.
Her butt was like twiceorthrice of mine. Her shorts look like it's gonnaburst anytime.
& she's wearing a super auntie heels.
Turn off! Yuck! Gross!
I could.t help it so wew went home.
I slept immediately after eating 2 tabs of panadols.
Until 9:30pm when brother called me.
I didn't realise it was so late, as usual.
Dad made my dinner for me.
I took about an hour or more to finish, so not like me.
My brother went to night market without me!
But he came back with food. Hoohoo.
I just finish bathing and i'm waiting for my hair to dry.
I guess i wouldn't be sleeping early cause i slept for 4hours just now.
Christmas is over!!
But new year is coming!
Bye earthlings.

Boo.

2008-12-25T03:37:00.004+08:00

Jessprecious.

She looked like she's in a disco

Bribaby.

Mum&dad.

One Two Three.

They say we look alike.

LJ face! Colourful shades.

Jloves.

Merry christmas.

2008-12-25T03:11:00.003+08:00

3:12am.
I realise i'm always awake at this time.
I couldn't help it.
There's church tomorrow at 9am &i can't get to sleep.
Turning in late & waking up late is super unhealthy.
Slept at 4am yesterday.I don't know what the hell i was doing.
Time just flew too fast.
& i accidentally off-ed the cool, comfortable air con in my room.
Freaking hell. But the cool temperature came back in like 5 mins?
New air con is always the best.
Woke up at 8:45am by mum to go to the salon.
It's like ages since i pampered my hair since the extensions were up.
I always wanted to say "the extensions are killing me!"
It itches my scalp here & there. It's super irritating.
Can you imagine you're shopping half way & the extension came out right infront of everyones eyes at where you are shopping at. I know it's funny.
I'm taking it out real soon & get clip ons instead.
Did a little rebonding on the top cause it was out of shaped.Ugly,fugly.
Steam-ed and my hair smells of the rebonding gel! duh~
Smelly.POO!
My hair is so nice now, for me.
I'm done in awhile & i head back home first to get my beauty sleep!
In 5 seconds i'm in my dreams. Record break.
The weather was super nice to sleep
Woke up at 2:30pm & i didn't knew it was that late.
Ate lunch, prepared & left home at 4pm when i've to reach hostel at 5pm.
Nice one. I reached there at around 6:15pm.
The place was still & empty.
It started raining heavily, we bet there wouldn't be customers.
But the people started coming in soon after.
We served, joked, played, laughed, shout, scream, whatever.
The night just pass very quickly.
By looking at the food, i swear it's nice.
A 4 course meal that cost sgd25 is worth it there.
Tasted fried ice cream!! It's awesomely delicious.
1 is never enough. Treat from sam. Thanks.
Left at 10 i think, reached home at 11:30pm.
Wheehee, old man accompanied me to countdown for christmas.
When he's already halfway to bed.
When the clock strikes 12, he sent me a message &there he goes to bed.
Lol.I just finish bathing, feel so nice & clean. Not like bribaby!
She don't bath before she goes to bed! Haha.
I'm going to upload some pictures & i'm ready for bed.
Nights people.

Christmas eve.

2008-12-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

1:01am.
Christmas eve.
My birthday just pass.
Woke up around 10 plus.
Left house around 3pm.
For program.
Went to Northpoint.
Ate swensens and went home.
That's my day, bye.

Happy birthday to me.

2008-12-23T00:57:00.004+08:00

1:00am.
Well, happy birthday to me.
It's rather disappointing actually, cause..
I'm the first whom wished myself happy birthday.
The day i've been waiting for 12 months, doesn't seem so atrractive afterall.
It seems like i've been forgotten &disappeared from this world.
Darling, I really wish you were here.
Cause i know there will be def something from you or not.
IDK. I really don't.
Why must it be this time, when i need you the most?! why?!
There goes to show i really miss-ed you.
You let me feel like a fool, but i'm still holding on.
I should be fair.
That's my promise, right precious?
Anyway, woke up at 10plus today.
Slacked around at home with brother's girlf.
Went out at 4:00pm to JP meet jessprecious,
To wait for brother also!.
He made us wait for like 30mins? Thanks!
We seperated.Precious & i went to shop around the JP extension.
Didn't buy a single thing but i got my nails done. Haha.
Sometimes it's good to pamper yourself.
That's girls isn't it.
Until 8. I left for home.
Reached home & here i am sitting infront of the computer, blogging.
I want to watch twilight!!.Heard that it's a good show. MUST watch.
Maybe tomorrow.
Bye people.

Drink;drank;drunk!

2008-12-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

12:22am.
I'm still awake as usual.
Woke up bright early in the morning for church.
After church went to Bukit panjang plaza. Eat curry!!
I really need to cut down on food.
I want to slim down like many many!
Duh.Anyway, walk around & seriously BPP is so boring.
Decided to shop at the new JP extension, while waiting for mummy.
She went for her driving lesson.
&guess WHAT?!?!
It's really nice and alot of new shops or rather it's very big.
Went bugis after that to change mummy's bag.
She doesn't like the bag we(brother,girlfriend &i) chose for her. :(
Shopped around &i almost but decided to get a guess wallet at the end of the month.
Went to AG home to pass old man some things &back home.
Tanney bought me a cake from s shop call "lil foot".
It's limited & she managed to get it for me.
Thanks Tanney.
I didn't know what's so special about the cake at first,
But later realise that the cake has inner beauty.haha.
The inside is not like a normal sponge cake.
It's filled with chocolate &cheese in checkered.
Cool! First time i saw cake being designed this way.Awesome.
We cooked "tangyuan" too. Whatever the occasion is,
I had a good time, will be better if you were here.
& like normal we sat around the table, eat,drink,talk.
Like always. I really loved this time, it's really family bonding.
We didn't had this before last time.
Had a long day.But i'm watching "misses no good" now.
Laughed like hell!
Bye people.
Hoho!
1 more day to my birthday! Whoohoo!
Pictures to upload.

2008-12-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

11:50pm.
In 10 minutes time, it will be midnight again.
The party ended at around 10:45pm?
Alot of invited guest wasn't here but i've a lot of unexpected guest.
I'm really happy that you guys came.
Made me laugh alot.
Many thanks to you people.
Hope you all enjoyed yourself.
Drank a little only. idk why.
I had fun seriously but it will def mean more if you were here with me.
Jessprecious wasn't here too. DUH~
When the guests came, the first question they asked was,
"Where's boonkiat?"
I couldn't speak at that moment.
But they all knew about it already. so not much for me to explain.
Anyway THANK YOU for all your presents!!
I'm not in the mood to blog. bye.

Irritated.

2008-12-20T11:05:00.003+08:00

11:07am.
I'm so irritated laa...
Sickening can?!?! Don't care don't care laa...
It's not as if i owe you something.
You're just a mother, purely just a mother.
You born me this way, what do you expect.
I'm not your dog! Damn it.
Sometimes you really piss me OFF!!
Today was suppose to be a happy &enjoying day.
You spoiled my sleep & my morning.Happy?

I'm sorry darling, i've to drink to give out my anger & sorrows.
I love you & i really hope you're here.
I'll blog later. bye.

Falling apart

2008-12-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

12:03am.
Midnight passed 3minutes ago.
I'm so not tired! What the hell.Insomnia or whatever mia it's called.
I can't sleep like a normal person.
Damn it.
Went for program and i kind of like knew something?!
I hate to know the facts, it's always so shit!
Effffff !!
I didn't knew you were such a person.
It's fine to have you as a friend. But never more then that. Trust me.
Your imaturity is gonna kill you one day if you don't learn.
My first impression to you is like wow! & you ruined it YOURSELF!
No one can help you unless you want to change.
DUH!!
Anyway, i went to vista point just now.
Bought many things but notvery expensive.
Drinks for tomorrow.
Tomorrow is DRINKING day!!
Tiger a dozen, Corona a dozen. DUH.
Hopefully, jessprecious will be able to come.
She got the sailsmart workshop 4 to sttend.
I'll leave a piece of cake for you, don't worry big sister.

Awesome.

2008-12-19T14:05:00.001+08:00

Got your letter again.

Many things about tomorrow.
I don't seem to understand.
But i know who holds tomorrow.
And who holds my hand!
Just remember, i'll never cease for infinite love!.

You were my everything.

2008-12-19T13:50:00.003+08:00

1:52pm.
I'm on extended homeleave!!
Actually not that happening, Idk why.
Supposingly i should be jumping around.
But it turn out that i want to stay indoors every single day.
What's the reason? Darling, i miss you.
Didn't really do anything this week.
Having insomnia, can't sleep.Every single night without fail.
Slept at 3am yesterday.
Woke up by his mum's phonecall.
Was suppose to go for my physiotherapy.But i woke up late.
Went to causeway &decided not to watse my time rushing down.
Cause i'll def be late.
I didn't blog for the whole damn week. Cause..
Anyway, went to his house to get something and went home.
&here i am blogging.
What will this 2 weeks be like?
Did i make the wrong choice to take up the scholarship?
Am going for program later.
Update tonight.

I'm half dead.

2008-12-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

9:23pm.
I haven't blog for the past few days because i'm like out of my mind.
Things are all getting all over the place &
I'm afraid i wouldn't be able to get it done in time.
I went home since wednesday,
Didn't get much sleep every night.
I spent most of the time packing my stuffs and preparing things for 20th dec.
Finally my room is packed, just need some curtains to cover my closet.

Went out with Aaron &Roger &another guy i've never seen before.
Was supposingly just a meet up but aaron suggested town.
So i met them at causeway &it rained.
He decieded to stay around woodlands as he needs too attend a funeral at 7pm.
Aaron suggested to catch a movie.
I didn't want to so i went to pack lunch for my parents &went home.

Today was shit, real shit.
Instead of waking up,starting a new/fresh day.
I ended up crying cause i didn't want to go for training.
I'm super tired but oldman insisted that i must turn up!
I was like so tired I also couldn't talk when jessprecious called me.
Anyway i crawled up, went to eat & went to NSC.
It was raining!!
Training was cancelled!!
Went church and back home.
I missed you deep deep down in my heart & i'm serious.

You're18.

2008-12-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

8:47pm.
I'm happy to recieve your letter yesterday.
Really happy.
Even though i'm kind of angry, all those things i've red.
The contents of the letter meant so much to me like you are.
I really hope that those words are said to me &
You really mean what you wrote.

The important thing now is,
It's the 14th dayof december &it's your birthday.
You must be feeling down right now.
Idk what to do or say.
But,
Happy birthday,baby!
Counting down to mine in 9 days.

Be still, my love.
Knowing that who i am,
and waited patiently.
I know the path you trod,so falter not,not a doubt or fear.
Not a sign nor a tear.
Can abide while we trust and obey.
I'm waiting by your side.
I will take you with me, in my happy home.
Where no sin or pain can enter.
Because there's always JOY and LOVE.

One,two,three.

2008-12-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

One.

two

Sleepy!

2008-12-11T11:14:00.001+08:00

11:17am.
Duh. I'm superb tired now.I didn't really get much sleep yesterday night.
I slept for about Don't know how many hours &
I really wish that my bed was here.
Bye.

Crave.

2008-12-10T12:36:00.001+08:00

I JUST FEEL LIKE DRINKING TILL MY HEART CONTENT NOW!!!!

D-pressed.

2008-12-10T12:31:00.002+08:00

12:34pm.
I really don't know what to do now.
I'm so confused, everything happened to quickly &too many.
Is this what you call waiting,missing?!
Hell, i really don't know. You are such a ...!
Disappointment is all i can say.
Finally things are going so well &this is what i what get in the end?
I fought for the wrong person &everyone will be saying,
Serves me right for not taking advises.
What can i do?
I'll just have to say thank you &walk away.
To start anew in everything.

Bye, my love.

Fark the asshole.

2008-12-10T11:47:00.002+08:00

11:50am.
Shit Shit &shit.
What is all this? Damn it.
It's over &i can't stand it anymore.
Thanks for the happy memories and we're done.
I mentioned make me go BONKERS and we're over.

Fark the asshole and Fark you!

Concert.

2008-12-08T18:38:00.003+08:00

Xinyi,Joyce.

Cassida,Joyce.

Joyce,bridget.Baby.

Joyce,Jesslyn.Precious.

Drunk.

2008-12-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

11:20pm.

Once again i'm sitting infront of my lappy to blog.
Yesterday when i was at Jurong point, i kept thinking alot.
Flashbacks and words came into my mind &i can't wait to write it down.
But i was too busy to blog yesterday.
&i most probably couldn't remember a single thing.
Yesterday night was disastrous.
I sat in the MRT &started crying like a stupid retard.
I don't really know the reason why but i just brokedown.
Today i woke up at 10plus. Went for breakfast,
&went home to recieve he new piano dad bought for me &my sister.
It's gorgeous, really.I'm determined to learn piano!!
Rest at home and we went norhpoint to catch a movie called "City Of Ember"
Kind of a nice show, very different from other shows that came out.
But it's like so not real, like fantasy.
Walked around Northpoint nw building
& head home after buying dinner.
Ate dinner &yet again started drinking. It has become a habit.
Without fail, on weekly basis. Cause i come home once a week.
I'm very happy that i'm going home permanently soon.
I think i drank a little too much that it makes my heart beat faster than usual.
Duh. But i still can blog, so i guess i'm fine.
I planned to watch gossip girl hroughout the night since i don't have to wake up early tomorrow.
LOL.
& sad to say i'm going back tomorrow.
Bye for now.

Sweetie, ILU!

Tired.

2008-12-07T23:16:00.003+08:00

06thDecember08'

Didn't wake up for church today.Slept late yesterday i guess.
Couldn't get to sleep.
Went to jessprecious birthday bbq yesterday.
Well i find it awkward cause i don't know anyone of them.
& i'm not in the mood.I'm sorry precious.
Left her place at about 7:50pm & reached home around 8:40pm.
Packed our rooms before we got shot dead by bullets again.
My dad painted my room and i went to bed after midnight pass.

ugly,fugly

2008-12-06T01:49:00.002+08:00

1:53am.
I'm now still awake.Cause i couldn't sleep.
I don't know where the ... is jessprecious.She's not replying my messages.
Damn. Something is wrong.
Please don't be like this.
Met ching soon before program at around 2pm.
We wanted to eat there but in the end he ate at braddell.
I didn't have the appetite to eat so i ate fries instead and a can + a bottle of coke.
Coke fan lol.
I'm now sitting infront of the computer typing the words but i can't think of anything to write.
Cause i'm very worried.
I bought a new phone today.
Finally, bought samsung F480.Luxury brown. Cool.
I'm still trying to get used to it caused it's kind of funny, really.
I'm still happy that dad bought me the phone i like. Thans daddy.

Hope that you'll get my letter as soon as possible.ilu.

duh.

2008-12-02T09:11:00.002+08:00

9:15am.
It seems like i'm gonna get screwed anytime from now cause something is really wrong.
Damn. It sounds funny when someone says he's gonna kill you
& i'm gonna die stuffs like that. It suck!
I don't know how on earth did a;; this happen when everything is still fine last night.
I've get to know a very bad news last night,
& i just couldn't believed what actually happen, happened!?
I'm not gonna blame you for anything but just that you didn't tell me the truth.
I bet if it is not for your mum i wouldn't know anything?.
I know it's difficult but...

I'll be waiting.

thy-loves

2008-12-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

12:40pm.
It's freaking hot outside now & i'm def gonna get burn if i get my ass out there.
Briefing is starting anytime from now & i decided that maybe i could blog cause i'm bored
& i'm missing him, again.
I'm now sitting in a air-conditioned cabin & it feels damn nice to be in here.
Than out there.
The season is HERE! CHRISTMAS is here.!
& my birthday is in 23 days time.
Party & more party!
6 days more to jessprecious birthday.
Girl, don't worry so much. we're going to enjoy ourselves like never before.
Till your mind fly everywhere, cause you couldn't resist. =)
We are all gonna have so much fun.
This would be the first year & for the other years, i promise i'll be there.
Regardless of whatever happens. I love you.

Remember to say "i miss you" to me everyday as you've promised.

Chill the sky is gonna be clear till 3pm & it's freaking hot.
Damn it.
Darling, i love you.

I miss-ed you.

2008-11-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

Hey sweetie,
I'm now blogging you in blog cause somehow rather i've got no one to talk to.
You left without saying goodbye. Gosh.
I'm really not used to not having you to text all those messages to me.
I feel so empty, so lonely.
Do you have the same feeling when i wasn't around?
I understand now. I'm sorry.
For the first few weeks of my home leave, we started of bad, real bad.
Cause your actions really do show that you no longer care, as much as before.
Or am i holding on too tight? Idk.
So i decided to talk to you about it & it turned out great. =)
I'm really happy that you've never given up on me since day 1.
Although i've done so much.
I know i've been saying the same old things that you might think that i'm not even sincere.
But.. One thing for sure.
I LOVE YOU!

It's has been ages since i've last seen you.
Damn i really missed you! & now you're not even contactable -.-
I can't wait to see you again, seriously.
I'm not going to thailand anymore but you'll be away for long.
Remember our promise.

Boring.

2008-11-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

10:35pm.I'm now drinking beer while i blog.DUH
.I think i really need to cut down on alcohol.I'm sorry.
Woke up at 6:15am today.Dad drove me to aghome to pass the tickets to papachoo.
Jessprecious and i den left for NSC.
Went somewhere to eat braekfast, we both had prata.
I drank coke, i think i'm mad. Fancy drinking coke at such a hour.
Jessprecious den suggest that we don't take the transport.
But in the end we ran so fast that it was like marathon, just to catch the transport & we were 20 seconds early still.
Reached NSC at 9am bute the regatta starts at 2:30pm?!
Laze around in the sailsmart office.
Ended about 5 pm and i left to downtown east.
Relatives are having a bbq there but i didn't go in.
Cause we( dad,bro & me) went to eat first. Had japanese food. Nice =)
By the time we finish eating, it's already 8:30pm.
So... went home.

2008-11-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

Corona Pasta.

Sister.

Mum and dad.

The night we had so much of bonding.

Ass!

2008-11-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

9:51pm,
Extra sleep today cause of yesterday's mahjong and wine.
Reached NSC at about 1+.
Rigged up and went down at about 2pm.
Wind was good but my hand seems like i couldn't hold on to the sail.
Was very tired but had a very good time.
Went off to PA had dinner with my parents. The restraunt there is nice.
Although it's a little expensive. Or rather very expensive.
Had a bottle of corona. HAHA. and took some pictures.
Requested for extra day at home, and here i am blogging.
I just hangedthe phone with my boyf. And i can't wait to see him.
Seriously my sister is damn it irritating. She really thinks that she's the in-house princess?
Sorry this doesn't applies in the family.
You're still young so don't come here and try to show your farking damn it attitude.
I only come home once a week so what do you want now? DUH~
I'm turning in early tonight cause i'm meeting jessprecious tomorrow morning.
And it's like i have towake up at 6:30am in the morning.
I'm browsing so online blogshops cause i;m suddenly so interested,
But still couldn't find.
Nights people.

Damn.

2008-11-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder, do you really ever cared for me at all?
I mean are you really that busy that you couldn't even text a single message to me?
Since morning?
Please..I told you i want to prove everyone wrong that you're not what they think.
You make me feel really.. Idk.
I just talked to my dad about you, everything is going so fine.
How many times have this happened? Ask yourself.
Promises? No other times? I'm sorry?
Hey love, there's a limit to everyone's patience.
I'm not trying to find fault in you, I just want to know the reason why.
Baby, please..
Stop all this, it's driving me crazy!!

Chill.

2008-11-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

16thNovember08'
Church ! Church ! Church !
Met jessprecious bright early in the morning.She went to my church. Long way down eh?
I hope you enjoyed the drama. Come more often if you can.
Awaiting for the christmas drama. You'll def have to wake up super duper early for that.
Haha.Was supposed to go for training but i mentioned i was down with flu.
We ended up in IMM. It was short but i really had a great time.
Jessprecious ate longan without paying!!
It was my first time watching her shop for groceries and she really can be a woman.
She went home after and i went to causeway point to meet my mum.
Went shopping and back to Aghome.

Jloves.

2008-11-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

10:28pm.I woke up super early today, so that i wouldn't be late.
Reached there around 8:25am. Jessprecious reached about 5mins later.
Supposingly to eat & leave there asap, we ended up shopping around changi airport.
T3 is very different from the other terminals.Took some photos.Had yakun for breakfast.
Went to take a puff & off we went to take bus 36.
Reached NSC & it was very very early.
Slacked in Jess office, she watched movies while i do my stuffs.
When i was talking to my brother, she suddenly laughed very loudly & gave me a shock.
LOL.super funny,Den papachoo came with briget,winnie & vanessa.
Went for training, wind was good.But not constant on & off.Very irritating.
Had a good time bouncing up & down the sea.LOL.
Something cut my sole when i was going to launch from PA.Painful*
I'm now down with flu & sore throat. Everything is so irritating.
I'm now home.Eating porridge, drinking herbal tea.Hope it helps cause it's so BITTER!
Got to turn in early again tonight cause i'm meeting Jessprecious again.
Invited her to my church to watch drama.Can't wait for tomorrow.

She is a angry woman now.